dd March 11th, 2007
My “singing career” began as a 13 year old when I became a Bar Mitzvah. I took piano at the time (a career cut mercifully short after 2 years of little practice and many missed lessons due to “illness” aka “I can’t go - I haven’t practiced”). So, I could play the trope (the musical notation which corresponds to the Torah readings) on the piano and taught myself my part that way. I was a bit of an innovator — at least in my class in 1960 — as I was the only one to ask our instructor, the assistant cantor, to please write out the music for me so I could play it at home. (Today, kids use cd’s or iPods to learn their part). I was amazed when he just took a piece of paper and wrote out the piano music on the spot.
Anyway, I studied diligently and practiced like crazy, in stark contrast to my short lived piano experience. Fear is a great motivator and the thought of screwing up before my entire family, friends and the congregation put a good deal of trepidation into little David. The big day came and it went flawlessly. Once, I started singing, I don’t recall being even a bit nervous. Afterwards, the cantor strongly suggested to my father that I should join the youth choir since I had a terrific voice. I beamed inside.
But, soon after that, my voice changed. I didn’t know how to deal with it. I did not understand what octave made sense. So, I just assumed I could not really sing anymore - my recently discovered singing talent had suddenly vaporized. And, crazy as this sounds, this mindset stuck with me for the next 40 some years. Although, my wife occasionally would tell me that I had a nice singing voice, I wasn’t even sure I could carry a tune.
Then, fate and a little arm-twisting intervened. Our Temple choir was having an open house and my wife, a choir member, cajoled me into attending, despite my protests that I couldn’t sing anymore. The choir seemed pretty low key and our choir director is a great guy and a great musician, so after the open house, I agreed to come to a rehearsal.
“What are you - a tenor or a bass?”, he asked. I hadn’t the slightest idea, but then blurted out. “I’m not really sure. Tenor I guess”, probably thinking back to my Bar Mitzvah days. So, I became a tenor for the next year, struggling to learn the high parts but still enjoying the experience. But, never did I volunteer for a solo - heaven forbid. Finally, the realization came upon me that it was much easier for me to sing the bass range and switched to the bass section. What a relief - this is where I finally belonged. For so long, in my own mind, I was still the 13 year old singer. Now, I discover I’m a bass. Choir was so much more pleasant and a lot easier.
Then, 2 years ago, in recognition of my volunteer web-master service, I was asked to sing the Kiddush prayer at the High Holy Day of Rosh Hashanah. My first reaction was, “I’m not sure I can do this - especially in front of 1200 people”. But, I hesitatingly agreed. Well, reminiscent of my Bar Mitzvah days, I studied that piece like crazy. I knew it backwards and forwards. When the time came - unfortunately at the very end of the 2 hour service - I was a bit nervous as I walked up to the front. But, once I began singing, it was deja vu. Not nervous at all, despite unexpected microphone problems. And, I nailed it.
Since then, I now volunteer when our choir occasionally doles out Yism’chu solos during a Bar Mitzvah service. And, recently I volunteered to be one of the chanters for our Purim service. I love these experiences. And, I love the fact that I have rediscovered my voice that had laid dormant for 42 years. Who knew?
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